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I Want to Walk as a Child of the Light


I want to walk as a child of the light

I want to follow Jesus

God sent the stars to give light to the world

The star of my life is Jesus


Refrain: In Him, there is no darkness at all

The night and the day are both alike

The Lamb is the light of the city of God

Shine in my heart, Lord Jesus


I want to see the brightness of God

I want to look at Jesus

Clear sun of righteousness, shine on my path

And show me the way to the Father

Refrain:


I'm looking for the coming of Christ

I want to be with Jesus

When we have run with patience the race

We shall know the joy of Jesus

Refrain:


I think we all want to be good people.  Even bad people, I believe, want to be good.  Most of my teaching experience comes from a psychoeducational center in Columbus Georgia.  I worked with students who had severe emotional, behavioral, and psychological disabilities and challenges.  These students suffered from depression, anxiety, suicidal ideations, multiple-personalities, PTSD, Schizophrenia, and a host of learning disabilities and Autism.  This position was, by far, my most challenging calling from God.  I ended up staying there for 9 years. 


There was so much darkness there.  So much pain.  So much sorrow and loneliness.  I often wonder what more I could have done to bring light into the lives of those children.  With so much darkness, how could anyone make a difference?  I often thought, “why would God bring me to this place?”  


This Sunday, I stopped to get gas on my way back home from church.  From across the parking lot I heard a voice scream "DR. PARKER!"  I looked around and knew immediately who it was.  It was one of my former students.  One that I did not particularly like and one, I thought, did not particularly care for me.  Makayla came over and was so excited to talk to me.  She kept me there for a long time chatting and smiling, wanting to know every detail and just soak up the moment.  


After we left I reflected on the meeting.  She was 19 years old.  She was wearing embarrassingly small clothes.  She was dirty.  She was mentally unwell.  She had cuts on her wrist that were just healing back.  She was with an older man who was not happy she was talking to me.  She was still surrounded by darkness.  She was still in pain.  She still suffered and was alone.  One of the last things she said to me was, “I’m still trying to be good Dr. Parker.”  


Makayla still wants to be a child of the light.  I don’t know most of the details but I wonder if she has ever been told about Jesus.  I wonder if anyone has bothered to show her the light of Christ?  I, again, failed at that opportunity.  I didn’t talk to her about Jesus because I thought it wouldn't make a difference.  Maybe my few little words would have only made her feel judged.  I was embarrassed to be seen talking with her.  What if someone drove by and saw me?  What would they say?  


I pray that we all have the courage to share the light of Christ with the world.  I pray we won’t be embarrassed to talk about Jesus with those we meet.  I pray that Makayla will one day be able to look at Jesus and know the joy that can only come through Him. 

 

I Want to Walk as a Child of the Light, arr. Tom Trenney